Bobby Green ( Johnnies #5)

I read Bobby Green by Amy Lane and I realized the stupor again that got me from knowing these guys and their world. This is real life, where kindness and fear dance together; where the hurting and the wrongdoing comes from fragility and not the big Evil. You learn that love can mend and it’s worth the pain. Because building and mending is difficult and so hard! It’s worth finding yourself and the right to let someone love you back. Bobby is so young, confident and giving; Reg is a big walking heart, trying to keep a big as a house havy promise and not fallin underneath its weight. Johnnies are good porn workers guys, they’re family. It’s so good that a real mum at heart is joining them!

Amy Lane has the ability of building people alive and I so love to have forever impressed them in my heart. The King of fear and thriller has this most special power. I know who the Queen is.

Begging for a piece of you

So if I’m scared will you hold me tight?
Because, my love, I’m terrified from my inner core.
Can you promise we’ll never dye?
Please, don’t throw your life working ’till night. Is it worth your days, your young possibilities eaten and gone?
I hope we’ll have the time, but I’ll cry in heaven all this young passionate love you’re letting starve to death .

Mom

Without you, in my life, I could do it easier,
’cause you’re the weight that keeps me going down,
and my tired arms can’t push the water aside.

I just had to go straight ahead and never turn back
’cause watching into your eyes is danger
and my body would have turned into salt.

But I’m still here, pretending it’s the way
everyone lives and every family is : you know
the truth is behind your prayers and lies.

Dreaming my life

If you look around,
Watch better I say,
You’ll lose the word,
Listen to me I say.

I waked the walls,
up and down,
I crossed the sea,
Through the ground.

You’ll never know
how much I loved
you how much
I need you.

I touched all the lips
every skin I smelled
all the lovers in me
I hold in my heart.

So, I fly away,
in the sweetest breeze
I leave the dream
so I can sleep.

 

Spring awakening

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Today is calling me,
it punches my shoulder,
screaming “it’s time, it’s time!!”

What for?, I don’t get it,
but someone whispers in my ear:
get up Lazy Ass and leave a sign.

All right, I’ve got it: LifE,
I’ll crunch you, I’ll kiss you,
I’ll hold you so tight:.. Love YOU!

Jingle life

There he was
lookin’ for somethin’
as a nut-nut cracker
as a nut-nut cracker!

There I was
cookin’ for buddy
as a me-me mermaid
as a me-me mermaid!

There we were
dancin’ through the valleys
as the pen-pen-penguins
as the pen-pen-penguins!

Here you are
singing my jingle
as a sun-sun-sunny
as a sunny sunny day!

Kiss you goodbye

I have no dreams to hold tight, to believe in, no hope in Us.
I’ll keep going, as I always do. ‘Cause I know I can’t play games, this si real, as real as my bleading heart is.
I’ll take some boxes, to put my body and soul in. No woman of me is left outside, no dreams of kisses of tender hands, skin to skin, heart to heart, only the woman you can keep, the one your mom is I think.
No passion no best friend, as you said, you were so young! , no friendship between us, and I was speachless.. How could we be in love without it? And now … Years and tears gone by… With my dreams, my sorrow and confidence, that I never had…
Kiss you goodbye while I’m here, to stay, and only God knows who I am.

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Stay away from me… please

How. How? How!

How could you? You’ve been horrible to me. Really. I have enough sometimes, of being trapped in my feelings, guilty myself about the comfort easy life I’m living with you, because you don’t ask, you don’t talk, never want troubles, ever.

So easy…

I have to ignore as you do, all the doubts, all the thoughts, every time I dream my ghosts is ok, I just don’t have to bother you. All right then!

Lucky me.

Death anniversary I’m facing me and myself, you don’t ask, ever, about her, or about the baby, but.. the thing is you have enough.. of me, being so nervous these days, so nasty.

I pleased, please don’t disappoint me this way (again)!

You looked at me, murder sight, and you said the words I knew (but prayed other way):”Be careful not to disappoint Me too much!”.

I understood, ’cause I knew it, I’m the bad one. You don’t even try to understand, you only attack me back.

Doesn’t matter to me, I knew the man you are, I knew you are good, but forgive me, just forgive if I don’t want to see your face.