You don’t know me

I need to stand up for myself. To be my own man, or woman in this case. I can adapt all right, can take all these little lies, as you picture them. I can be underestimated all my life. Be a tool for my own family. I’ll keep on living in my mind and keep my true self to me. When someone is ignoring me while I’m talking, I stop. I already know what’s on my mind and I don’t need to here it expressed in my voice out loud. I care about my body, I take care of it and I’ll let it untouched as much as I can if I’m not going to be treated with the care and time and feeling I deserve. You moron. You’re undeserving of my love.

Bobby Green ( Johnnies #5)

I read Bobby Green by Amy Lane and I realized the stupor again that got me from knowing these guys and their world. This is real life, where kindness and fear dance together; where the hurting and the wrongdoing comes from fragility and not the big Evil. You learn that love can mend and it’s worth the pain. Because building and mending is difficult and so hard! It’s worth finding yourself and the right to let someone love you back. Bobby is so young, confident and giving; Reg is a big walking heart, trying to keep a big as a house havy promise and not fallin underneath its weight. Johnnies are good porn workers guys, they’re family. It’s so good that a real mum at heart is joining them!

Amy Lane has the ability of building people alive and I so love to have forever impressed them in my heart. The King of fear and thriller has this most special power. I know who the Queen is.

Spring awakening

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Today is calling me,
it punches my shoulder,
screaming “it’s time, it’s time!!”

What for?, I don’t get it,
but someone whispers in my ear:
get up Lazy Ass and leave a sign.

All right, I’ve got it: LifE,
I’ll crunch you, I’ll kiss you,
I’ll hold you so tight:.. Love YOU!

Horror eulogy in autumn fantasy

Reading stories about obsessions,
strange creatures, ghosts, possessions
loved them all
Hawthorne and Poe

Dickens goes well
Lovecraft till you’re mad,
but I’ll always have a place
for the Master of Universe

the Red King fantasy
will endlessly forever
make shiver my skin
from heaven to hell.