Stay away from me… please

How. How? How!

How could you? You’ve been horrible to me. Really. I have enough sometimes, of being trapped in my feelings, guilty myself about the comfort easy life I’m living with you, because you don’t ask, you don’t talk, never want troubles, ever.

So easy…

I have to ignore as you do, all the doubts, all the thoughts, every time I dream my ghosts is ok, I just don’t have to bother you. All right then!

Lucky me.

Death anniversary I’m facing me and myself, you don’t ask, ever, about her, or about the baby, but.. the thing is you have enough.. of me, being so nervous these days, so nasty.

I pleased, please don’t disappoint me this way (again)!

You looked at me, murder sight, and you said the words I knew (but prayed other way):”Be careful not to disappoint Me too much!”.

I understood, ’cause I knew it, I’m the bad one. You don’t even try to understand, you only attack me back.

Doesn’t matter to me, I knew the man you are, I knew you are good, but forgive me, just forgive if I don’t want to see your face.

Talking to you

“Yes,I do.”

Said twice, to you, the same you.

And you get bored, always, impossible conversation, I’m not in your interests.

So, when I try,You get bored, than I stop, going on with this job.

Then you don’t like me turning off on you and you start chatting about balls in the air, or that’s what it shows to me.

Write girl, go on writing, build something in the clouds, tough.

 

You’re hurting me

I’d love to say you love me, like nobody could.

I’m not sure, at all.

You know you hurt me and I know that’s not your fault.

It’s your fault, but it’s not what you’re willing to.

I’m a big girl, turn into woman now,

I should have learnt not to believe,

but trust my own feelings.

It doesn’t matter what you say,

I’m capable to understand

the difference between

your words and your thoughts.

Jealousy, Envy?

Better not to mention them at all,

let’s say it’s impossible to bear

your woman with a soul.