Stay away from me… please

How. How? How!

How could you? You’ve been horrible to me. Really. I have enough sometimes, of being trapped in my feelings, guilty myself about the comfort easy life I’m living with you, because you don’t ask, you don’t talk, never want troubles, ever.

So easy…

I have to ignore as you do, all the doubts, all the thoughts, every time I dream my ghosts is ok, I just don’t have to bother you. All right then!

Lucky me.

Death anniversary I’m facing me and myself, you don’t ask, ever, about her, or about the baby, but.. the thing is you have enough.. of me, being so nervous these days, so nasty.

I pleased, please don’t disappoint me this way (again)!

You looked at me, murder sight, and you said the words I knew (but prayed other way):”Be careful not to disappoint Me too much!”.

I understood, ’cause I knew it, I’m the bad one. You don’t even try to understand, you only attack me back.

Doesn’t matter to me, I knew the man you are, I knew you are good, but forgive me, just forgive if I don’t want to see your face.

You’re hurting me

I’d love to say you love me, like nobody could.

I’m not sure, at all.

You know you hurt me and I know that’s not your fault.

It’s your fault, but it’s not what you’re willing to.

I’m a big girl, turn into woman now,

I should have learnt not to believe,

but trust my own feelings.

It doesn’t matter what you say,

I’m capable to understand

the difference between

your words and your thoughts.

Jealousy, Envy?

Better not to mention them at all,

let’s say it’s impossible to bear

your woman with a soul.

Passion

 

I linger in my dream thoughts, trying to hold all the emotions I’ve felt .

Kissing and touching and hot gaze upon me.

A thrilling sensation, a steamy vibration, looking for each other, no words requested for the language of love.

We go in the soapy land, we could learn how to fly, in this burning state of mind.

Let the body take control, leave your doubts out of yours.

Morning is coming and this dream is spreading abroad.

I’ll catch you tonight.

The guy from nowhere

There was a little place, so little you could see the end of it by the corner of the street. There was a family in the village, so hungry for a better living,but miserably alone.

One day  a guy  came in the little place, looking for something new. The family was delighted, they coud use some good company. The guy became part of it, always keen to get down to work, always smiling at the others, always there. Everything was perfect, nobody to break their happiness. Everyone was working hard and helping each other to get the most of it. Time went by, parents grew old, the children grew up, but the guy never changed, he alway seemed the same guy who came in, years ago. The daughter looked at him in a different way, the guy was shy at first, he was always kind and smiling, but felt awkward about these new feelings. Day by day they came closer, no one noticed that, but a smile back above the other heads, a hand softly touching a hand, an eye looking for an other eye, their feeling grew bigger. One day, after dinner, the guy stepped outside, staring at the dark sky, looking for a star. He felt cold, but stood and started a whispered prayer. In a moment he felt embraced, so warm and soft and tight. He opened his eyes and found himself  entrapped in her arms. Tears came down his cold cheeks, he took her hands and kissed them so grateful for the present. She went in front of him to gaze at him and as the nature teaches, she learnt to kiss.

Every beautiful flower loses his petals someday, so their love became the start of the end. The old parents rejected the guy with no age, he was no use anymore, he couldn’t take their girl away.

When the night came back to earth, the guy took the girl with him by hand, the family was screaming loud. Her mother crying, her father swearing, the brothers astonished could not understand, they never felt for someone.

The two of them did not hear, did not see, he opened his wings and held her tight. They flew away and never come back.